Sunday, February 17, 2008

10 kilos

is it possible for me to become determined enough to shave 10 kilos off my body? i really need to grit my teeth and just get on with it. i am battling with myself everyday and can never understand why i can't control myself. argh!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

self control

i desperately need an extra ounce of self control... make me do things i have to do when i have to do them make me stop eating when i have nothing better to do organize my life in a way that don't annoy me so much finally realize some of the many aspirations i have


what is it with rock bands and cigarettes??!

i don't know about elsewhere in the world, but in taiwan, people in bands drink a lot of beer and chain smoke like their life depends on it. it really is annoying and they seem to think that they're elite or whatever. don't get me wrong, i dabble in rock music, and i play some guitar and drums, i just don't see the connection between getting intoxicated and getting drowned in smoke and rock and roll.

Monday, February 4, 2008


a friend told me that if i have too many goals, it's like having none.

well, i'm not entirely sold on the idea yet, but sometimes i panic when those who are fixated on a single goal and plunging ahead and leaving me in the dirt.

to give you an idea of how undecided i am, i am currently holding 6 jobs, taking a master's program and preparing to apply for another one, applying for a student exchange year to japan, taking up japanese lessons, thinking of publishing a book... you know, the whole nine yards.

anyhoo, i like where i'm at right now. it's just that it spooks me now and then to think that i may be going down the wrong path... okay, paths.

just a thought.

Sunday, February 3, 2008


yep, that just about sums me up...

here i am *again,* on the day of a deadline, trying to scrape together a decent piece of work to hand in... sigh. i always have a million brilliant ideas swirling through my brain but i never have the motivate to actually realize them. i always end up dragging my feet and agonizing every minute of the way.

i really don't know what to say.

something... deep


i was at a yoshinoya in yungho (taipei county) today and heard the personnel cracking jokes with one another. like in any other country, those who work in the fast food industry are either students or those who don't have a nice diploma to show. so, it was interesting to hear that their joke consists of a poem (which most taiwanese have to memorize in elementary school).

that got me thinking, is it possible to hear the same kind of conversation elsewhere? i can't imagine the french-fry scooping guy at, say, a fast food store in ohio memorizing a poem out of his high school english textbook, and for fun, that is.

anyhow, that's just a thought, and one of yet another long line of cultural differences that i have experienced on this leaf-shaped island.