Overconfident

sometimes i feel like i've more than made up for my lack of confidence when i was small and might have gone overboard. a prime example would be how i could go straight to a guy and tell him that i like him. many girls would have to muster up a lot of courage to do that, while i, on the other hand, need to exercise a lot of self control to keep from being too direct.

what's wrong with direct, you say? nothing. except that it kills the suspense (suspense is fun) and sometimes infatuation is just that, infatuation.

(canned argh)

I've come a long way...

I'd say that I've come a long way since I was a child.

I'm not talking about physical distance. Sure, I went from the Philippines to Taiwan, and now Japan; but that's not what I'm talking about.

I'm talking about how I've gone from being painfully shy to... a slightly confident person.

I used to be so shy that I don't dare raise my hand to tell the teacher that I have to go the bathroom real bad...
I used to be so shy that I don't dare sneeze or blow my nose in public for fear of attracting attention.

These are just some of the examples.

That's why I feel proud when I stand in front of a crowd and talk for half an hour without breaking a sweat.
That's why I feel proud when I teach a class and find that the students are actually listening to what I am saying and somehow respect me for what I am doing.

I'd say I've come a long way since my childhood days :D

'Gifted' Class

there's a type of class in taiwan high schools widely known as a 'gifted' class. here, students that are supposedly 'gifted' are gathered together in the same classroom and educated differently from their peers. they are given a wider choice of classes to choose from, as well as better teachers and resources.

i have a bone to pick with these types of classes. first of all, i disagree with the term, 'gifted.' by definition, one would think that gifted means kids who are born smarter than most people, and in some cases, geniuses. but kids in 'gifted' classes are mostly just those whose families can afford to send them to expensive cram schools or get them expensive tutors to boost their academic scores. in other words, there are many undeserving kids who get to be branded as 'gifted' though they may not have the actual aptitude.

Sniff...

Wow, this is definitely a first. I'm feeling slightly emotional for wrapping up a 12-week class.


This class has been awesome. More than 80 percent of the students were regulars in my class and of course that made me proud. But the most important factor remains to be the fact that they were very attentive and responsive in class. I hope I'll continue to receive updates of their lives after the class.

This class has been an awesome experience and it does wonders to my ego. I really enjoyed every bit of it!











Sad thing is, I forgot to bring my camera to class today.... I had planned on taking a picture of my students.... T_T

envy

sometimes it's hard to pretend that i don't mind other people speeding past me. it's true that we are all born into different families and live different lives. some say that life is fair, but i don't quite agree. it's especially difficult to agree if you see other people living your dream while not having to work too much on it... yeah, i'm talking about the money factor...

paper money

stop burning paper money outside your houses, you assholes! it freaking stinks! since you love doing it so much, burn it inside your house! have some respect for other people who don't wanna die from your poisonous smoke!

perseverance?

surprisingly i'm finally getting my act together and doing things i need to do when i have to do them. i'm no longer putting things off and surprise, surprise~ i've shaved 3 kilos and i'm more determined than ever to reach my goal!